None of us are perfect, but we need to find the things in our life that are. A little over sixteen years ago I got pregnant. If you read my last post, you know I’m a single mom. Digging deeper into the story, I was dating my son’s father for over a year, got pregnant and he broke up with me. I spent 9 months of my pregnancy alone, walking the beach in Marina del Rey, Ca. with my dog Catch. Feeling like each and every neighbor had thoughts of judgment. Emotionally, it was one of the hardest times in my life. I had no family in Calif., and a weak support system. ” It was a dark place.”
I had a series of toxic relationships and was now on my way to be a mom. I had to work through the negative voices in my head and find inner strength to rise above them. I knew I needed to love who I was and find joy and purpose in my situation. In today’s society it’s so easy to beat ourselves up and compare our lives to others. I remember thinking how lucky the mom’s were who had “good” husbands. Their lives looked so perfect.
When my OB said ” the womb-life and the first three years of life set the entire life’s course of a child”, I had a revelation. At that moment, I stopped the noise. This was not about me. I was on a mission to succeed for my child. I read every book I could on becoming a consciousensious mother so that I could set the foundation for life- long health and happiness in my son. I started practicing Kundalini yoga and meditation with Gurmukh Khalsa at the Golden Bridge in Los Angeles. I did daily mudras and mantras, listened to classical music, slugged fresh juices and hiked the Santa Monica mountains. I embraced being a mom. I may not be perfect, but when I look at my son, I know I got something in my life perfectly right. He is the light in my life.
Today some of you will be celebrating, some reflecting. Whatever the case, it’s a day to be thankful for what we had or have and the sacrifices that the remarkable woman called ” Mom” made for you.
I want to wish every mother a Happy Mother’s Day!